As of today...

Things are seriously creeping . . . or so it seems.  I think its the weather.  The sun has to come back out in full force at some point, right? 

Our dossier has reached Bulgaria.  Its currently in translation, and will be there for another few days before it will be legalized.  Once legalization is complete, it sits on somebody's desk until that somebody does what he or she needs to do tobe able to call us and say, "come on over". 

I'm getting impatient.  I knew that would happen at some point.  Right now, we have a daughter that doesn't live with us.  In fact, we don't really know where she lives, how she lives, or who she lives with.  We don't know how bad her conditions may be, but we don't know how much better off she may be than other orphans in her area.  As a parent, I REEEEALLY don't like unknowns.  Especially when we're talking about the welfare of one of my kids.  Maya is mine . . . she's ours.  We've claimed her, and I want her.  NOW.  I want to hold her, I want to give her a real bath and cover her in Baby Magic, and I want to talk to her and let her know how crazy her family is about her.  I want her to know what love feels like, because right now, she doesn't have a clue. I want her to know the love of a God that created her . . . perfectly.   She knows what the confines of a steel crib is like, but she doesn't know what the love of a mama and daddy can provide.  I want so badly to give her what basic humanity requires . . . what makes us thrive.  My heart sometimes hurts so badly for her.

If you haven't taken a look at this blog yet, www.nogreaterjoymom.blogspot.com, go take a peek at what's going on with this family.  Adeye is in Bulgaria, with her two oldest sons, right now on a trip to bring her two newest family additions home.  I've never met this woman face-to-face, but she's absolutely an incredible inspiration to me.  I've loved reading her updates, but it makes me long so badly for someone to call us and tell us that we can come and see our Maya.  Once that first trip is over, it will be so hard to leave and wait to go back.  But my heart needs that time with her.  I miss my daughter that I've never even met.

Hold tight, my sweet girl.  We're coming.


-Paige